suckage

So

I kind of dropped the thankful ball last month.

Thank you for not raking me over the coals TOO much.

This mother-of-two business ain't no joke.

It's a major time suck. Brain suck. Soul suck. Major suckage.

But I love it.  I love my little boys. They suck me dry. Figuratively and literally

(eew.. too much? I a have no verbal boundaries.)

One final thought before I move beyond the failure of my month of Thankfulls.

If there is one thing I would like to express gratitude for it is this.

The ability to change. In case you haven't noticed, change is hard.  

I am not talking about adapting to changes in your external environment.

I am talking about instilling change in yourself. Not easy. In fact, in my opinion, the hardest part of being human. When it can be achieved it is nothing short of miraculous.  I honestly don't think it really happens that often, because it is just so hard. 

If you or I or anyone is willing to take a giant leap and change the things that

need to be changed it is commendable.

And if you or I or anyone actually succeed?

Like I said, miraculous.

And now I have washed my hands of a botched 30 days of thankful.

Thanks for sticking with my through all of my suckage.